Tuesday, November 21, 2006 @12:40 am
How come I have to give up?
Why did it take me such a long time to realise what a changed person you are? I hate the idea of giving up on you. I really do.
Your friendship had always had a place in my heart. It meant the world to me. For years. Even till now. Your friendship still means the world to me. YOU mean the world to me.
It's been 7 years. 7 long years. What happened to you? Why are you drawing yourself away from the world you belong to? What are you hiding from, and what is that factor drawing you away??
Please come back... I miss you, and I love you, for who you ever were and who you really are. Still to me, all this is your facade. A part of you that you found over the past couple of years, a false you that gave you false confidence.
You never needed that fame and popularity. You were always loved by whoever and wherever. That's the real you, the you I grew up with, the you that I'd loved with all my heart.. I shared everything I had with you, and you with me. We always understood each other best. The bond between us never broken, and never had to be mentioned. It feels... different now.
It's heartbreaking to know what has become of you. On the outside you're doing great. Inside, I really don't know what kinda emotinal turmoil you're going through. I'm glad to know you're doing well, I'm glad to see you happy. And yes, myself hiding at a side, stealing a look from the corner of my eye just to check your well being... just to remind myself that I haven't forgotten about you... and that I wish to be there for you and with you.
But the look in your eyes, the tone in your speech, the words that you use, only tell me how much of the opposite you are.. you have long forgotten about me, and the rest of those you truly loved.......
Please, for once in such a long time, let me know you are aware that I'm still alive....
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Thursday, November 16, 2006 @9:43 am
WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE MORNINGS?! WHY MUST THEY CALL AT 9.30AM AR?? CANNOT GIVE PEOPLE TIME TO SETTLE DOWN AT OFFICE FIRST IS IT!
Ladies and gentlemen, as you can see, I ABSOLUTELY HATE CALLS IN THE MORNING. It's damn frustrating because I'm trying to keep myself awake, then I have to entertain stupid and stubborn questions..... leave me alone lar...
it's irritating.... and I'm not getting stupid questions only on the phone..... argh!!! isn't it straightforward enough??!!!!!
can I just cry....... sometimes I really hate working........
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